Last night, I had a series of incredibly disturbing dreams.
Two of them were unpleasant, but not unprecedented–one of narrowly dodging assault, and one of everything being covered in large maggots, and maggots being inside & under everything. ( 
) The first is pretty typical dream fare, and the second reflects my fear of bugs and is also pretty typical, so though they disturbed me, they did not shock me.
The third dream, though, was like so effing fucked up.
First off, I had a baby. 
The details weren’t really covered, I just all of a sudden had a baby. But thing is, the baby wasn’t a normal human baby, it was a tiny little finger-sized, finger-shaped thing that had a tiny cute baby face and the consistency of firm jello, or jello-y soap.
I carried it on my finger. Then it got submerged in some substance, which wasn’t a problem (it was chocolate or something?), but then I went to wash the baby in a sink in a public bathroom, and while I was washing it, it broke into three pieces. A diagram, below:
As you can see from my ridiculously primitive drawing there, the baby broke into what I thought was two pieces, but then appeared to be three from a smaller piece. My first thought was to put it back together, but then I had this horrible moment where my stomach lurched and I realized that I had killed my child, and that what I had done couldn’t be undone.
To try and make it less horrible, I resolved that really, the baby wasn’t a baby–I went around referring to it as a zygote. Which, as a sidenote, is kind of hilarious because I haven’t used that word since 7th grade (never really took science since then).
So basically, WTF is going on in my head?
I feel like it would be easy to look at this and see some freaky anti-right-to-choose thing, but for the record I am and have always been staunchly pro-choice. And (despite me calling it a zygote) the baby in my dream wasn’t a fetus. It was a baby, it was just a really strange tiny baby. In the dream, though, it was normal for it to be that small.
Anyway, though, just thought I’d share. I have a lot of weird dreams, but rarely do I have a dream that leaves me so weirded out when I wake up, and when I do, I tend to blog about it. Interpretation suggestions are welcome.
Recently I’ve been having dreams that I was pregnant again, in this one one of my coworkers told me I was
And last night I dreamt that there was a tornado and I had to save my son from it. Was scary.
AAAAAAAAAAAH
That is both hilarious that you drew it (cause it’s cute) AND HORRIBLE <3
Are you sure you are not pregnant? Most women have very strange baby dreams such as that when they are pregnant. Maybe your dream is trying to tell you something?
Haha, yes I’m sure!
That is one freaky dream! I wonder what you were trying to tell yourself lol If dreams are you brain sorting through your days experiences I have to wonder what you were doing that day hahaha
So I experienced a sea of emotions while reading this post. First, I wanted to laugh because you drew a diagram that included your finger as a reference, the baby and then how the baby split apart. Secondly, it was sad because you remember in the dream trying to fix it and realizing you couldn’t.
Hm…did you happen to eat some spicy food before going to bed?! I’ve heard that can make for some wild and weird dreams…
I can’t even begin to try to interpret such a dream– well, let me give it a go. If you have something really big going on in your life, maybe you’re trying to protect it or secure it so it doesn’t crumble. You especially don’t want it to fall apart because you would feel responsible for it and realize that there’s nothing that can be done to fix it. Maybe a fragile situation…
….or maybe you ate hot sauce.
-M.
Looking back on the last couple weeks of my life, that’s a pretty good interpretation!! About my job situation, etc. Though why would my job be a baby in my dream? Hmmm. I’ll have to think about that more…
And no hot sauce for me.
Glad I could provide you with a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Always a good goal.
Haha, that dream was sort of cute though:) The one with the baby:) I have lots of weird dreams as well:P